Monday, October 21, 2013

Morning Glories



My father had a name that he was born with. But forget that name. He was one of sixteen children, and somewhere along the way his baptismal name and his birth date got lost. I want to talk to you about his other name, his middle name. The one that he went by.

My father's middle name is the name of a road or something, in the town where he lived, in a country that isn't this one. And it is a name that his family pronounced in an accent that isn't common in the States but isn't at all impossible to attempt. 

Anyway my father moved to the States and eventually married a New Yorker. His New York wife had an accent but thought she didn't, and his wife, my mother, thought my father’s accent was funny, so she Americanized his name.

My father went along with the name change, no contest, but I used to wonder if he never really wanted his name to change—because sometimes when distant-living family members would come to visit and would call his name in that old familiar accent, I would see a look come over his face, an indescribably warm look, like a little boy whose mother just told him that he was a good boy and she'd just baked some cookies just for him, warm out of the oven.

My father is also, I believe, a man fond of nicknames, but my mom named all of her children names that were difficult to shorten and particularly fought over having any of our names shortened to monikers ending in a "y" sound. (It is interesting to note here that my father's name is a name that ends in a "y" sound.)

Still I was pretty sure that my father wanted to, at least occasionally, call me by a nickname for my first name, a warm, sweet, little name that my mom didn't want to hear. And some mornings when the morning was still night and the house was creaking cold and I had to wake early to study for an exam, my father would come into my bedroom, rub my feet gently, and say, "Good morning, Laurie Dorie. Good morning, Morning Glory," And those were good mornings.

Anyway, I had no idea what a Morning Glory was, but this summer I bought a two dollar and fifty cent packet of seeds labeled with the name, and I planted those seeds around my mailbox and around one tree out front. Having no experience planting anything, I was really surprised when they actually took.

Anyway, I'm writing this to tell you now that the results of that planting sometimes make me feel a little close to tears when I see them. Perhaps a little something like a girl whose father said she was a good girl and he baked some cookies just for her, warm out of the oven.

Or maybe, it is more like a little girl who feels that a bunch of lovely blue flowers amplifying her name in the bittersweet, horn-trumpeted, tinny, crackling, skipping sound of phonographs grew right over her heart.

More likely, though, I probably want to cry because I wish it was as easy to send something back, right in that very black mailbox in front of me, back to my father's home.